Went to my mom's house straight after work today.havnt gone there in months.*shame,shame*not really a candidate for son of the year but so is my brother.picked up some of my things there.Some books,mad magazines,south park vcd's and some old photos.man i looked so different three years back.Twas taken when i was holidaying in kota tinggi.been such a long time i went overseas.*sighs* Reading the authoriative calvin and hobbes.All hail to Calvin,the philosophical genius ahead of his time*Hail~Hail~*



Went to queensway s.c today.alone. as usual.anywayssssss, went to enquire abt the living dead dolls at this toys shop.they told me that they could order it for me if i could give me the name of the dolls i want.I had no clue so she gave me her name card and told me to call her when i have the names.She looks funny.shes thirty-ish(i think) but she has two ponytails with the end tinted.actually looks kinda cool.Havnt called her yet.maybe tomorrow. Been sneezing the whole day.Damn Haze.rain in the afternoon cleared it.oh god bless the rain.*Dances the rain dance*well here's an ironic song. And i don't understand why i sleep all day~ And i start to complain that there's no rain~ And all i can do is read a book to stay awake~ And it rips my life away,but it's a great escape~ escape......escape.........escape....... No Rain by Blind Melon Groovy man,far out.*Gives the peace sign*



The weather is still hazy rite now.making my nose all stuff.cant believe this is the earth that i inherited.i wonder if i cud trade it for a better one?dont think anyone (or anything) would want it anyway.too polluted,too populated,too shitty.oh well....Que Sera Sera,C'est la'vie and all that crap Been seing lots of shadows lately.maybe just my paranoia but i keep on seeing them at the corner of my eye.even in daylight.hafta get a grip on myself.......... *feeling kinda mellow at the moment* Well i never said i wouldn't~ Throw my jacket in the mud for you~ But my father gave it to me so maybe i should carry you~ Then you said 'You almost dropped me'~ So then i did And i got mud on my shoes I'm finding it harder to be a gentleman by the white stripes



Bought two living dead dolls today.they look so fucking cute.i think im gonna start a whole collection of them.hav lizzie borden and lou sapphire rite now.surfed the webbie and there's like a whole lot more of living dead dolls out on the market.the both of them look so cute next to my crow figurine.lizzie is dressed in a gothic victorian outfit while lou is wearing a blood red shirt and a double breasted tux complete with a red hankie.gonna ask the store if they planning to get summore..... Lou Sapphire A cane, a contract Your hope quite grim, Adopt this boy, And hell comes with him. Lizzie Borden This lovely child, Comes with an axe, Back from the grave, And on the attack.



Had to break a promise i made to myself.was too wasted to write yesterday.things didnt really go as planned yesterday.didnt really catch a movie.but i think the night more than makes up for it.me head still feels like a bowling ball rite now.my breath still reeks of alkeyhol.i loathe myself.same feeling of hatred for myself after a night of drinking.my fucking falling from grace....pure utter bliss*smiles* the programme for this evening is not new, You've seen this entertainment through and through, You've seen your birth,your life and your death, You might recall all of the rest, Did you have a good world when you died? Enough to base a movie on? Her cunt gripped him like a warm, friendly hand, Silver stream,silvery scream, Oooooh,impossible concentration. James Douglas Morrison



still not asleep yet.DAMN!!!!!!


Second straight day i spent talking to my friends until the wee hours of morning.cant remember when was the last time i did this.dont really know where i got all this energy from.its 7:30 in the morning and my mind is still fresh.feel like jogging now.speaking of which i have an ippt test at the end of november.need to start running regularly now.the extra $400 will really come in handy.saw this really nice looking sweater while shopping last nite. Bought a new pair of shoes yesterday.costs $99 but the nice lady at the counter said that she recognises me and gave me a %10 discount.hmmmm it does pay to flirt.shud do it more often.she said that the new acupuncture shoes will come in at the end of the year.i'll just hav to wait then....... My off day today.planning to watch a movie(or two) today.maybe will go to a friends workplace at night.he invited us over with the promise of free drinks and u dont really pass up on an offer like this.i think i'll wear my white shirt with grey and red stripes.Maybe i'll write again later about how the night went.



One of those days where everything moves in a very slow pace.feel so sluggish today.Finished reading my book today.been wanting to finish it up for so long.really need the cash rite now.one more week to payday.im gonna buy myself a polaroid camera.u never know when u gonna get one of those kodak moments.well just wishful thinking for now.hafta pay this and that.not sure if i cud afford it.*checks wallet* Just learned sumthin new.to have a rosaline means to admire someone from afar.sumthin to do with romeo and juliet.maybe ill just call her rosaline.dont know her name anyway.*romeo,romeo wherefore art thou romeo*eh wait a minute,thats not suppose to be my line.Haha my hair smells yummy.smells of strawberry.



Finally my off day.has been a long time coming.think ill go out or sumthin.wudnt wanna waste my day off.wonder if anybody is free tomorrow.need to make some calls early in the morning tomorrow. Went to the rooftop at the end of my shift.my place of solace.twas a humid night.none of the usual night breeze.a distinct cocoa smell nauseated me.must be from one of the nearby factories.stayed there for about ten minutes.cant think of a better way to end my work.felt so much better after that. CDs i bought this week: dj shadow-the private press boredpucks-banned in the singapura queens of the stone age-songs for the deaf



Feeling so happy today.maybe its becos i dunt have anyone bugging me at work.maybe becos its sunday.i dunno.been so long since ive felt so happy.was beginning to feel like i was floating at work today*Haha* Dont really hav much to say now.I'll finish off today with sumthin by jim morrison Awake, Shake dreams from your hair, My pretty child,my sweet one, Choose the day and choose the sign of your day, The day's divinity, First thing you see. *James Douglas Morrison*



Saw a movie with a colleague today.He just wudnt shut up.I was eating my popcorn and he was going on and on and on.*ouch that hurts.....no shudnt have done that........its a trap......RRRUUUUNNNNN..........*wish he would just shut up.good thing it wasnt a good movie.shud stop watch movie with him I think im suffering from a mild case of cabin fever.its not exactly Overlook Hotel but its still suffocating me.this guy keeps on playing linkin park again and again.i swear im gonna puke in his face if he brings the cd again.lately every little thing that ppl do seems to bug me.maybe im suffering from severe depression.feels like the world is closing in on me.need to get away from all this shit.*HELP ME* ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY ALL WORK AND NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY



Such a beautiful day today.woke up very early.got a call from a fren.asked me to type out his resignation letter.how do u write one anyway???when i do mine im gonna fuck everybody who made my life miserable at werk.*haha*three more months to go and im freeeeee.... Sept 11 passed without a hitch.all the security measures were just a waste of time and money.not that i was expecting sumthin to happen.there was the usual prayers to the ppl who died.**minute of silence** Hope shes werking today.didnt see her yesterday.wonder where she went to.thoughts of her in the red cheongsam still make my knees go weak.a vision of ethereal beauty.*sighs* soft hair and velvet tongue~ i want to give you what you give to me~ and every breath that is in your lungs~ is a tiny little gift to me~ dead leaves and the dirty ground by white stripes