Ah, is there room for both of us? Ah, both of us apart? Are we bound out of obligation? Is that all we've got? I kiss the earth and then I get to thinking, I don't want to think I want to feel. Oh how do I feel? And fucking how do I... Like you're the only one and I'll never be enough. Yeah. Hail, hail, the lucky ones. I refer to those in love. Yeah. I swore I'd love you til the day I die. Oh and beyond. Oh are we going to the same place? If so can I come? It's egg rolling thick and heavy. All the past we carry. Oh, I could be new. You underestimate me. If you're the only one will I never be enough. Yeah. Hail, hail, the lucky ones. I refer to those in love. Yeah. I sometimes realize that I could only be as good as you'll let me. Oh, are you woman enough to be my man? Bandaged hand in hand. I find it on the run in a race that can't be won. Yeah. Hail, hail, the lucky ones. I refer to those in love. Yeah. If you're my only one. I want to be your one. I want to be the one. Enough, you win. Enough, you won. -Hail,Hail by pearl jam



bad boys,bad boys watcha gonna do,watcha gonna do when they come for u there i was lazing in my living room with my my door wide open when BAMMM!! "Open up !!! Open up !!! CNB !!! " *flabbergasted* what the fark??? followed by more door-kickings.(not mine of cos) it was like watching an episode of COPS i tell ya.this neighbour of mine (who's door faced directly opposite mine) refused to let them in.they continued kicking the door creating a ruckus.five seconds later and everyone was out of their house to see wat the commotion was abt.they managed to open up the door somehow after a while.switched off my tv,hell this is more interesting.didnt get to see much after that though cos they closed the door.but i did get to hear wat was going on inside the house.lotsa profanities were used and all i was thinking was abt the little girl that was always sneeking a peek into my house.cud even hear her screaming at one point. *tch tch* they came out ten minutes later with the mom and sum dude handcuffed.the poor little girl was also taken in.not sure where to.how traumatising it must hav been for her.knew long ago that sumthing fishy was going on behind closed doors cos it was always locked and all kind of weird ppl come in at weird hours to their house.the realities of living in a squalor neighborhood really hit home today.



30 days before my birthday...thinking of a wishlist for myself.


got a surprise call from her this morning.and once again im putty in her hands.*turns into messy pile of goo* .we talked abt the strangest things.like how martin scorsese shud trim off his eyebrows,how fake avril lavigne is.*sighs* i even promised to let go two of my beloved living dead dolls to her for her birthday.she was quite surprised i still remembered wen it was.this spell she has over me. *slaps himself* *still in daze* *slaps again* oh well~ oh well~



funny thing happened at werk today.....
.....got a call from my manager to assist her in sumthin.not really sure wat for but went down anyway.so to cut a long story short a guy was video recording a show from his seat and i was there as a bodyguard just in case he tried to run away or sumthin.he was sitting there with his videocam without even trying to be discreet or anything.he was plucked out from his seat and taken outside for interrogation.turns out that he was a tourist from china and claimed that he didnt know that recording the show was illegal.(dunt they hav copyright laws in china??) and there i was,the stick figure,with arms crossed (for the bouncer-look) trying to look as tough as possible.the guy wasnt that big but if he had tried sumthin stupid i doubt that the company is paying me enuff to doubleup as a bouncer.didnt need to anyway becos the guy looked scared shitless.his face was pale and he answered in a very soft tone.he muttered to me sumthin in thickly accented mandarin.just shrugged and said dunt know.kinda pitied him but thats wat u get wen u break the law in singapore mister.welcome to singapore!!! he was taken away by the men in blue after that.deported maybe.*shrugs* .....was at the foyer for abt an hour just people watching.(i swear i was werking boss) saw this boy (must be abt 16-17) walkin with his girl.nuthin unusual except that he was wearing a spiked armband which goes from his wrist to his elbow.wassup with that.who does he think he is,alex delarge? and his whole outfit doesnt fit him too.baggy tee and jeans.the hip hopper look.showed him to a colleague and had a good laugh over the stupid fuck.no wonder his girl was walking like abt two paces faster than him.i wudnt wanna be caught dead be seen with this asswipe either.saw anuther clown hip-hopper type with bling-blings big enuff to anchor a ship.them fucks sure taking this hippity-hoppity thing too far.and as for me,i'll just stand here and get my kicks from watching these numbnuts thank you.
bada boom boom boom.thank u,u hav been a lurvely audience




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wey hey hey!!! the deal is done.hands shaken (although money not yet exchanged) but i do hav the two plane tickies to bangkok.cant wait cant wait cant wait.still hav money from untouched ers and expecting windfall from next month's pay.the only problem i foresee is i wud hav no idea wer to go when i get there.*sheep in big city look* certainly hav to figure that out soon.hav to learn how to speak thai too.hmmmm...how do you say "i'm a tourist here so please overcharge me".



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Oh wat a night~late december back in 63~Oh ermm hey there...still in d&d mood i guess.been so long since ive enjoyed myself.danced myself silly,won a prize in the lucky draw and i got to chat up with this girl.well the prize wasnt that great but it was better than nuthin.danced with the evergreen auntie anne the whole night.she sure tired me out even though she is nearly twice my age.she won a two ticket flight to bangkok.damnnn why didnt i get that.all i got was sum vcds and a $30 delifrance voucher.im trying to get her to sell it to me cheap.*hoping hoping* my drinkin buddy cudnt make it so i had to stay sober for the whole night.tsk tsk.the food....ermmm i came quite late so by the time i got there half the dish was already served.it was ok i guess.*shrugs*stayed there till abt 1am when everybody started to go back.pooled cab with kamariah and two of her colleagues.my head still throbbing from the noise from the speakers.guesss ill end it rite now.byees



had a the weirdest of dream last nite.dreamt that i met ozzy osbourne.*laffs* the ozzman himself.he looked younger in my dream.he was talkin in his birmingham accent and i cud actually understand him.and i replied him back with a string of 'lah's and 'lor's.weird.not sure wat the conversation was abt but i partly remembered tellin him that he cud hav his tee back since it was so fooking huge.i was lookin fer his tee when i suddenly woke up.had a glass of water then remembered.ozzy wants his tee back and promptly fell asleep again.*laffs* weird aye~ P/S:no more black sabbath at nite for the little boy again.



my stomach is rumbling.sooo fooking hungry.all this is rumbling is transcending me into a higher state of consciousness.am receiving weird thoughts in my head.aummmmmmmm......seeing visions of the muppets living in the real world....aummmmmm......how politically-correct wud they be???....auuummmmmm.........wud kermit and frens be charged with indecent exposure???(ever wondered why big bird is called BIG BIRD???)......wud gonzo be racially-discriminated???(if sumbody could categorise him to a race or species or sumthing)........bert and ernie are actually gay(c'mon two guys living together,and hav u seen how happy they always are).....miss piggy wud hav been slapped with a restraining order for stalking kermit(or kermit die bleeding tied to a chair which ever comes first).........auuummmmm.....bunsen honeydew wud hav been sent to the chair for killing his assistant Beaker in a lab accident.......oscar the grouch wud hav been a hobo livin in the alley of sum slums.......aummmmmm.......and then came my salvation.sum leftover food from yesterday.all this visions sure takes alot of energy.im all drained out.maybe i shud just sleep the next time im hungry.and not hav these weird thoughts in my head dammitttt



first official opening day of toys'R'us.was greeted by a very insincere 'mornin welcome to toys'R'us".i bet that that gets very old after the hundredth customer.and the smile wud hav looked better if it wasnt forced.the store kept on playing its jingle over and over again."I dont wanna grow up.....I'm a toys"R'us kid....There's a million toys at toys'R'us that i can play with".they sure drummed that song inside my head thats fer sure.keep whistling it whilst werking today.didnt bought anything there cos i didnt find anything really to my liking.there was the usual barbie of cos.i foresee a catfight in the near future with all the bratzdoll and blythe dolls trying to step into the market as well.why do this dolls hav to begin with the letter b anyway?wats wrong with the other letters??*rant**ramble**mumble*



me:hey u wanna see movie later?ard 7? miss 7-11:tonite?awww..cant make it.my moms birthday. me:hmmm ok.(dignity still intact) mom's birthday???isnt that in the same line as "i have to wash my hair tonite","my cat just died today and im gonna have a funeral for him" or my personal fav "stop stalking me,u psycho" rejected,dejected the human punching bag moves on.



things i'll never figure out.why do people keep on watching wwf (or watchamacallit now) even though they know that its all one big soap opera.No,i dont know who the current champion is.my next paycheck doesnt rely on me answering which mister tightly-packaged-nuts has the belt.and i wud greatly appreciate it if u dunt show me ur rock impersonation.anyone who refers himself as a third person is a lame-ass any way u look at it.who speaks like that anyway?i know its all just a persona they're puttin on but im sure they can make it look less irritatin.and these are the type of guys who make more in a month than what im gonna get in my lifetime.stupid world we live in....



sum werds of wisdom by eddie vedder: Caffeine...the gateway drug.(totally agree on that one) Everytime I see the Spice Girls, it makes me want to try to fly by climbing my roof and strapping bricks to my shoes.(feel the same way everytime i see a boyband) Hate to promote anything like this, but before I'd kill myself I'd probably kill somebody like Bush.(no comment.) In America we like to have fun. Because we are an advanced culture... we live in a very advanced society and have a futuristic way of taking care of our population problem... we give each other guns and kill each other.(there goes my american dream) You can't save someone from drowning if you're treading water yourself.(ahh wise werds indeed) They call you guys Generation X... that's bullshit. They should call you Generation Why... or maybe Generation ZZZ 'cause you're falling asleep.(and u wonder why he's so popular) So I hope Neil's feeling a little fiesty tonight... (E.V. at Neil Young's induction into the R&R Hall of Fame, Jan'95...Speaking of fiesty...some asshole put our table right there, next to the Ticketmaster table right there.... I'm predicting a food fight by the end of the night...(on his ongoing war withe ticketmaster back then) These are the rich people, right?! They have all the luxuries, right?! Looks to me, they are the farthest from the stage, and they're behind a fuckin' window(woo fuckin hoo!!!Down with the rich white man!!!!) and this one concludes eddie's words of wisdoms..... How is life treating you? Better yet, how are you treating life?



was sittin at the void deck after coming back from the trip from kl.just wanted to hav a drink before going straight back home.anyway jaxman came along carrying his son.and then all the old faces from the past suddenly appeared.like a reunion xcept that this wasnt planned at all.soon we were all chattin away talkin abt family,life,werk,etc.there i was a 21 yr old,fresh outta life talkin to a bunch of old fogeys abt how their sons and daughters were.and the weird thing was i didnt feel outta place at all.felt comfortable.natural.twas like one big family.has a very kampung feel to it.people whom i hav known way wayyyyy before puberty.i remember doing errands for them just so that they cud buy sweets fer me.has it really been 21 years here?hmmmm felt shorter than that.i cud really see myself still livin here 21 years more down the road.....


been too tired to blog yesterday.woke up late fer werk.still feelin the after effects of the trip.overall a good trip i shud say.been to places ive never been to,seen things ive never seen.a real eye opener.went there with no inkling watsoever of wat to expect.shud hav stayed an extra nite at kl but didnt really hav much money after the second nite.shudnt hav spent so much at genting.anyway talks abt a second trip to kl is in the pipeline.expected to be at the end of march if things go smoothly.*hoping hoping*



less than 24 hrs to go.backpack still empty.money still not changed.waiting for sum motivation.last minute panic attacks always have that effect on me.nyucks nyucks.but i hav all the stuff i want written down so the work is half done i guess.hope weather is good when we reach there.*crosses finger*moving off at midnite tomorrow so we're already assured of enuff rest when we reach there.not expecting much on the first day,maybe just sight see,walk here walk there.but i am expecting hell to break loose on the second day.*laffs*kuala lumpurians beware!!!