arrrgghh!!my fridge is dead.my fridge is dead.well not technically.just the freezer part.that makes it half dead doesnt it.sumthin to do with the rubber lining leaking.must hav been drippin the whole night cause the floor was wet when i woke up.the worst part is my choc ice cream is reduced to a state of goo.*mourn mourn*hav to drink it through a straw rather than a spoon.no melt in ur mouth feelin.*mourn again* bought nirvana's self titled album yesterday.i think its just a ploy to milk money from their fans but who cares.only one new song in this album.kinda like a best of.flashback circa era 1993.must hav been only 12 years old.the first cassette tape i bought was nirvana's nevermind.he was the reason i bought my first blue chuck taylor converse shoes.when being sad and gloomy was cool back then.hmmm......back to the present.now 21,replaced the cassette tape with cd.still wearing converse shoes.and always sad and gloomy.guess some things never change huh.......



too bored (blame it on monotony) too sleepy (shud have slept at werk) too broke (payday is a week away) too hungry (instant noodles just dont cut it anymore) too lazy (i really need a french maid) too little time (always procrastinating) too numb to care (in a state of denial,actually)



test printed halloween:the resurrection.if ure planning to watch the movie,here's an advice dunt.the movie farkin sucks.first of all,jamie lee curtis dies in the first five minutes.ermmm excuse me but isnt she the star of the show.the original miss screamqueen?u dont kill off ur most famous actress.sheesh.the only saving grace (if there's any) in this movie is the part when they showed the girl boobs.no wonder its nc-16.*haha*oh yeah lookout for the bong session.cant believe they didnt cut that out.nudity and violence is ok i guess but usage of drugs???i dunno.funny these board of censor guys.lotsa double standards.



ever had one of them days where everyone looks at you differently?well i did..this guy started it by doing a double take on me.didnt think much abt it but everyone kept on doing it the whole day.started to get paranoid thinkin abt it.stayed in my workroom the whole day.im not being narcissistic or anythin.i dunt care if i dunt look good but ill kill myself if i forgot to zip up or hav a booger hangin at the end of my nose.hate that feelin.i wud be like checkin my zip ever so often,lookin in the mirror.dammmn the paranoia...



well its official now.oasis is not coming to our sunny island.sumthin abt terrorist attacks.the self proclaimed 'we're bigger than jesus' band afraid of sum attack?hmmm....anyway im over it.just hav to roll with it.hit me like a wonderwall at first but got over it soon enuff.'Dont look back in anger a fren told me.Some might say that it was kinda expected.stop crying your heart out i told myself.they'll be touring all around the world again.well,little by little im picking up my life again.hav to look for better hindu times,stand by meself and just sip on sum champagne supernova to ease myself.Yup im definely over mr liam whats-his-name.......



Woo Fooking Hoo!!!!finally,found sumone to go to the oasis concert wit me.ijat called me this morning and asked if i was going.he said that he wud pay fer me upfront first.the tic is a bit expensive though.especially when payday is at the end of the month and the concert is this saturday.ahh who cares!!its not as if oasis comes here every other day u know.just hav to tighten the belt a lil bit more.ill be counting down the days till saturday comes..... Hav to go to my mom's house today.expecting lotsa foodies to eat.miss my mom's cooking.hope my niece is there too.gonna bite her nose when i see her.*haha*lurvely rainy day today.no more haze.no more blocked nose.perfect sunday i shud say.......

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Click Here To Take The Test --

this test is schhtupid.ok i may be paranoid,schizoid,schizotypal,avoidant and a wee bit dependent but one thing i am certain is im not narcissistical.i dunt think i exaggerate my achievements and i am certainly not choosy abt picking friends.wonder how they come up with this type of things anyway.and after taking the test there are self help books for u to buy.awwww how convenient.Isnt that nice?after they snowball u with names they think that they might as well take ur money.well middle finger salutation to you mista.ur mindfucking manners will never get to me.MUuuuaAAhhhHHHaaaa*rocks back and forth in chair mumbling incoherently*



Cute isnt she???shes the best lookin one i think.lurve her flamin red hair.


Every woman shud smell of spirit of moonflower by bodyshop.'Nuff said..



stupid is as stupid does.schhtupid smrt came up wit a new way of supposedly making the commuters travel faster and so they stopped the use of farecard altogether.had to buy the 'disposable' ezlink.being the backdated numbnuts that i am,i tried to insert the card through the old way when i was supposed to just tap it on the machine thingy.the queue behind me started to get longer as it was the morning rush then.after a few unsuccessful attempt trying to force the damn card in,this old lady must be ard 40 to 50 said to me.'Nak(son), ure supposed to tap it on top'..red-faced i tapped the card and proceeded on to my miserable train ride...AAARRRRRGGGGHHHH.....da shame of it.....*buries head in sand*schhtupid mrt ppl. theres this new manchester utd shop that just opened in jurongpoint.Ugghhh da horror da horror....mustttt reesissst urggeee......mmuust noottt spiitttt attt shopp....... ..aaarrgggghhh this is killing me.theres like a conspiracy to piss me off today and the whole world is in on it.guess just hav to wait for tomorrow then.cos tomorrow is a better day maybe????!!!



Since today is my off day,i decided to go on a trip to discover myself.who i am,where am i going n all the emotional baggage.i selfishly(arnt we all) asked a girl for my appraisal.she hestitated a while but this is what she gave me. i think youre smart. i think you should take chances more. you have much potential in your future. i think you need to find your passion, and pursue it. i think youre looking for some happiness. i then asked her wat she dislike abt me youre wasting away your life. how dense you can be sometimes youre clueless-ness issit all true?i dunno.....not fer me to judge.her opinions not mine.read up summore on personality disorder and found out that im a schizoid.even the part abt my job is true.shocking actually. SCHIZOID People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. They genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived as humorless and distant and often are termed "loners." oh well,enuff self discovery fer one day.came up wit more negative than plus points.depressing me.back to the real world then schizoid.



One of the few times that i am blogging in the afternoon.my mind is blank actually.so i think im gonna just cut n paste today.i like this conversation between two very bored ppl. **weirdo no 1:hmmm shudnt hav given u the catfood **weirdo no 2:it has gone wonky weirdo no 2:ma tummy weirdo no 1:must be sumthin u ate yesterday weirdo no 2:u gaf mua kitty food! weirdo no 1 checks the expiry date weirdo no 1:oopss weirdo no 2 fall dead weirdo no 1:awww weirdo no 1:my poor wittle kitty went dead weirdo no 2:please arrange fer ma funeral weirdo no 1:eh not dead yet? weirdo no 2:am sayign ma last praya la weirdo no 1:anythin u wanna give away? weirdo no 2:ma fur weirdo no 2:make it to a furcoat weirdo no 1:fer who? weirdo no 1:mini me? weirdo no 2:fer ur toes weirdo no 1:oh yeah weirdo no 1:i always like the feeling wen i step on u weirdo no 2:ahha weirdo no 2:madness **names have been withheld to protect the stupid. any similarities to the living or the dead is purely coincidental


Blleeaaargggghhhh.im still feeling the after effects of yesterday's virus.vomited three times today.wish i had vomited at the mangers office so that he would see how sick i was n send me home.no such luck though.was puking at the toilet when this fella came in and just kinda stared at me as if i was bulimic.U never seen a guy puke or are u sum sick perv who gets a hard on seeing sumone bending over the sink.everything i ate lately seems to come out the same way it went in.and NO i dunt eat from my butt.maybe i shud stick to my diet of choc ice cream.... Looked at myself in the mirror and noticed sumthin shocking.i look like i just stepped out of the night of the living dead movie set.dark rings ard the eyes,deep sunken cheekbones,pale looking.this thing is really taking a toll on me.shud get more sleep.and food too.havnt been taking good care of meself lately.ah well promises,promises.....



Hmm.i think im back to being a living breathing healthy homo sapien.was so sick yesterday spent the whole day in bed.well except to go to the doctor that is.i think he got his license from sum third world country or sumthin cos there i was feeling sickly and he said that there was nuthin wrong with me.u wanna know what he was doing on his comp?not doing some research on doctors stuff but downloading sum music.can u believe it.he even showed me on the monitor a watch that he was getting fer himself.asking me wether it was nice.Hey quack!! im dying over here.*note to self:sue the quack for malpractice*the only good thing that came out of this miserable day was that i got to watch my fav shows.went on a movie marathon watchin the professional,pulp fiction,goodfellas and who framed roger rabbit.drifted in and out of sleep for the last show though.oh yeah contrary to wat other people believes,choc ice cream is the best medicine wen u are sick.As the wise sagely Alfred E. Newman would say 'What?Me worry?'



the day went really fast today considering that i had alot of werk today.its usually these kind of days that u regret not doing anything meaningful.people are always talking abt wasting money,food,etc but never abt wasting the days.*reminiscing the times used to spend playing hide and seek at the carpark*funny how the days spent doing nuthin meaningful means more to me than spending it looking for money.weird eh?.....u reading this yuppie scum? noticed sumthing funny when i was making my usual rounds at jp today.babies and baby strollers seem to be a fashion must haves.i think its the in thing to be seen cuddling a baby.some of them looks even younger than me n thats saying alot cos i still get my ic checked when i buy drinks.shocking really considering the number of unwanted pregnancies we have here.moms nowadays are really getting younger.hmmmm...maybe its just me.........



i actually toyed with the idea of editing yesterday's blog.i hate it actually.just not me at all.but i happened to look at the top of my blog and saw my headline.quod scripsi scripsi which means what i have written i have written.so i guess i'm stuck with it now.how true the whole thing is.we can destroy what we have written but we cannot unwrite it.*shrugs*oh well, at least sumbody likes it.got to rid this out of my system.the thought of it is really fucking up my mind.oh god,sumbody just shoot me..........



i keep on thinking abt her all day today.like a broken record,her name keeps on playing in my mind.killing me really.been months since i last talked to her.her new life is takin too much of her time i think.wonder if the exchanges of i love u means anything at all.and to quote her...... you see, people have two ways of perceiving love the first way is like writing your name n your lover's name on the sand in time, your names would be washed away with the waves the second way is like carving your name n your lover's name on a tree bark you can back after years and maybe the carvings have faded, but it hasnt disappeared, it merely grew with the tree (she says the most beautiful things)wonder was mine written in sand or on a tree bark?(was it even written at all??) i keep telling my friends, "i have so much love to give, but nobody wants it"(ever considered me?) fell in love with a girl i fell in love once and almost completely she's in love with the world but sometimes these feelings can be so misleading she turns and says 'are you alright' i said 'i must be fine' 'cause my heart still beating' she says 'come and kiss me by the riverside,bobby says it's fine he dont consider it cheating' red hair with a curl mellow roll for the flavor and the eyes for peeping can't keep away from the girl these two sides of my brain need to have a meeting can't think of anything to do my left brain knows that all love is fleeting she's just looking for something new and i said it once before but it bares repeating fell in love with a girl - the white stripes hmmm how apt.....*sighs*



lurvely lazy sunday.life seems so beautiful when ure in bed at four in the afternoon.cant remember the last time i did this.lurvely,lurvelysipping on sum horrorshow chai,oh my brother..... been reading up on calvin n hobbes the whole day.a typical conversation between calvin n susie: calvin susie,i think it's only fair to tell u that there is absolutely no way i wud even consider asking u to the senior prom. susie thats eleven years from now!! calvin i figure that might give u enuff time to find sumbody who will. calvin (badly bruised) if i'd known her longer,i cud've given her more notice. well,its funny wen u see it.cute love/hate relationship they have. sometimes i think the surest sign that intelligent life exists elsewhere in the universe is that none of it has tried to contact us~calvin*hmmm ponder ponder*



i dunno why but this song keeps on playing in my head all of a sudden.havnt heard it in quite awhile.although it does fit the way i'm feeling rite now. freak-silverchair I don't really know~ How to put on a 'cool' show~ As boring as they come~ Just tell me where to go~ If only i could be as cool as you~ Yeah,i'm a freak of nature~ Yeah i'm a freak~ If only i could be as cool as you~ As cool as you~ Body and soul,i'm a freak



I just discovered that i have a super power.i hav the ability to make other people around me feel gloomy.this fella who was working with me was laughing before i came to work but by the end of the day he was smoking alone at the staircase contemplating about his life.i even thought i saw a black cloud over his head.*lets out a Dr Evil laugh*promised myself not to use it for global domination.with great powers come great responsibilityIm really rambling rite now.....must be the panadol i took just now......in a somnambulant state of mind.....hey lookit,pink bunnies............



Havnt really been updating my blog lately.no excuses really,just lazy.been seeing my friends more than usual this week.not sure if that is a good thing though.the're too crazy.cant really catch up with them sumtimes.they live in a totally different time zone sometimes. Went clubbing with them yesterday.really enjoyed myself.maybe it was becos i didnt drink that much.i dunno.anywayssss the band was playing their last day there.the new band fuckin rock man.they dont really play the rnb stuff like the old one.the whole crowd was stunned when they played rainbow's gates gates of babylon.i was the only one headbanging to it.ah wat do them nigger wannabe know about good music anyway.\m/ \m/. Night ended on a sumwhat sour note.some people got drunk and we're really spoiling for a fight.funny how booze can make sum people feel invincible.as if they can take everybody on.some of this people are even in their mid twenties and still involved gangster shit.the lives we all choose....... p/s:my neck fucking hurts.too much headbanging.worth it methinks.\m/ \m/.rock on man!!!!!!!!!