im sick.i really am.mentally.perversed with thoughts of misery.i know i shud be worried but i feel comfortable with it sumhow.soothes me.knowing that im facing reality rather than living in denial.always saying that things are fine when they really arnt.smiling even though life's little misery gnawing at my insides.surrounded by 'friends' but always feeling lonely.material things dunt please me anymore.not the dolls,not the cds,not the clothes.nuthin makes me happy these days............ Im not like them But I can pretend The sun is gone But I have a light The day is done But im having fun I think im dumb Or maybe just happy Think im just happy My heart is broke But I have some glue Help me inhale And mend it with you We'll float around And hang out on clouds Then we'll come down And have a hangover nirvana-dumb 'i think i'm dumb,maybe just happy' (still craving the latter)