beginning to pick up my past bad habits again.destroying myself just like i use to.making everybody hate me for no apparent reason.nearly snapped at a colleague just becos of his nonsensical drivels.there he was making conversation and i felt like i had to shut him up somehow.walked away from him just to cool myself down.had to go to the roof top to clear my head.walked rite to the end and sat on the edge.legs dangling and all.and for a fleeting moment i thought abt it.pictured it.how sweet the few seconds wud be just before the impact.sweet sweet release.from life from everything.funny how im entertaining such suicidal thoughts just when i knew that sumbody out there likes me.i keep on pushing the self-destruct button when everything is goin on just dandy.took my last puff and went down cos i didnt like the way i was feeling at the rooftop.did not speak to anybody for the remainder of the day.and now im labelled the proud anti social melayu just becos of it.but so what fuck you,i dunt need u or ur kind.i dunt feel the need to bend over just to please u.my sanity is hanging by a thread rite now and the only thing holding it together is the alkohol and death sticks.makin me forget everything.brief escape from reality. uprooting the mind astonishing vision a gray film melts off the the eyes and run downs the cheeks Farewell.